i hate it how you always assume about the things i didnt do . yea paranoia much but that doesnt mean i will continuously do it you know . it's annoying when there's no sense of trust that eventually cause separation after years of it . driving is going well . its just sooner or later that i will be another user on the road .
watched inception today (: a really interesting movie i shall give it a 10/10 marvelous work . tmrw will be another day just something new everyday . not to long ago i had camping and gosh it was fantastic (: the water rafting , caving along with the other stuff that came along with it that is the mosquitoes and other stuff (: lol but its worth though
other than that i miss my hippo and glitter bitch ): geez
my glitter butch is going to china ): geez lol miss her but she'll be too perasan :D but i still love her retarded self . good luck babe for your skating competition . other than that school has been such a bumm the amount of work load im getting makes me feel like giving up seriously . my life revolves around assignments assignments and more assignments .
whole reason why i stop blogging for awhile . i stay back nearly everyday and im like always tired , sleeping early right after im done with my work . just a ton of bullshit and even on the weekends i have chores and more fu*king assignments . i'll be back when i stop winning
school has been productive not only for my school work but as well as working out all my fats away (: teehee slowly trying to pick up cheer and to be flexible once again , just missed it so much . this semester is suppose to be the better than the previous one but its getting sucky with all the new retarded rules that just doesnt make sense really . they are getting strict as it is that makes me want to graduate from school soon ):
im picking up all my stunts once again , now my objective is to do a split , walkover , and flips (: these are one of the few that i have to make sure i become successful in that sense as well in my studies but it shouldnt be a problem :D
havent been posting up much cause practically was just too caught up with assignments , anyways this week was pretty good went out to pav . Watched toys story i'll give it a 5/10 and had an awesome time (: . though i didnt managed to get the shirt i wanted so badly from zara but well maybe its just not meant for me .
i passed my driving theory exam and now i got my L (: watch out ! im gonna be on the road soon ! woohooo (: school has just been so tiring since i took up pe again . i would just fall asleep at 10 the most . cant even stay up anymore which is a good thing
finished my violin exam !! :D as well as went to the gym nowadays .. i thought i might just loose everything but well something just changed me . let's see where this life will lead me . i may not be able to choose between you but im sure in time i'll figure it out (: school is gonna start ! watch out :P urge for CHOCOLATES !
had a pretty productive day (: i went to the gym spent bout 2 and a half hours there , i guess i used my time fully :D and i made my apple crumble pie !! i havent been making it for a super long time till i have forgotten how to make it in the first place but its successful .cleaned up some part of the basement since of all my childhood junk and treasures that we plan to keep and throw away some unused stuff . and surprisingly its majority 80% toys .
LOL shows how much toys i used to have . most of them dont work anymore but there are still some that can still be used . it was sad really throwing the toys that i used to play with its like every toy i picked has memories that comes along with it but i cant use most of it anymore and if i were to keep it its gonna collect dust . i miss my childhood life , as life was so carefree and i just felt like on the top of the world .
geez turn back time when life wasnt this complicated !! :O well the life i have now its fine but there's alot to take care as well the responsibilities that has to be carried out . hmmm :S
its just the same as any other day but this time is a little bit different (: went to maz idol yesterday , i have nothing much to say really .. i do miss some of my friends but other than that its my past that i never regret leaving . its probably one of the best decisions i've made rather than staying there . yea being where i am today may be expensive and thats why i feel that i have learn so much and i value everything my parents gives or allows me t0 pursue certain things
they may not see the value but i do , yes money is valuable to . its like i'm being left in the middle to be judge all the time . well i expected more in school but for now its just my mom . i love her so much , but it just gets annoying at times but i dont blame her either . i cant expect everything to be given to me and have everything i wanted , but i will make sure i'll make the best out of it .
" there is no fire like lust , no grip like hatred , no mesh like delusion, no surging water like craving " - Buddha
words can be so amazing when it has been put into a sequence for it to be meaningful and valuable. my trip has been great since my brother and i have gotten closer than we were before . since well he and i were young we can nvr really get along . and this trip has changed it all . it changed him as well as my reaction towards him . wait till he's exposed with life . grows up . oh god im gettting old -.-''
i'm finally back from my trip (: lol the whole trip was fun and at the same time tiring . wish to spend time more on the beach instead of the city . since the clothes in hong kong wasnt interesting the only thing i can shop for is shoes , skirts and shorts since thats the only thing that looks decent . in a way i didnt do much shopping . but there was a ton of experience , tried different things , learn a bit of cantonese and well just had a ton of fun with my family .
miss all my peeps (: friends , cat , dog , fish . teehee ! gonna go out with my cousins tmrw to watch " She's Out Of My League " and probably not gonna sleep early at all (:
goonna go to hongkong tmrw ! (: gosh havent been traveling in awhile, but wont be in contact whatsoever . with facebook and my blog along with my friends for about a week ? i can live with that . i think . i'll make sure there will be tons of pictures taken (: will be leaving tomorrow morning oh gosh im excited (: good night blog ! see yeah in a week
day was so far great , spent time with my cousin . havent been able to be around her due to the distance and all but it's get to get back once in awhile . i cant believe we spent 100 bucks just on arts and craft stuff and they're barely anything just a few pieces of paper and some diff types of items . went and look around for stuff and instead spend all our money there . haih things are just getting to expensive now a days . wanted to watch a movie but line was long and i wanted to watch other movies like
toys story 3
letters to juliet
and some other movies that i cant think of right now ...
licence seems sooo far away , holidays are finished half way , exams are coming up . oh great . what a life ... just feel so negative at times .
im so frustrated to the way society pushes us to do things we dont want to do . i want to stand up , take that mic and scream !! all of us is being pressured and brainwashed . in other words the young generation must learn to absorb to become open minded and optimistic about the life they intend to live . this subject can be widely debated but this is from my point of view .
damn , sometimes i just wonder why are we living for . people say to make a change to the world . but why must we take care of it , is it just because we live in it ? its like sometimes i felt that people are not meant to be treated that way . as how to each and everyone of us is carved in unique ways and not everybody is the same . so meaning everybody cant get along ?
i've learn something today , that people dont notice nowadays . you know how our parents or society tells us that you know you have to get married at this age , then after that get a house , become financially successful , have a family , grow old , and die . if thats their interpretation of life then what about what we want ?
which really got me thinking , if everybody were to follow those steps then where is the part where we enjoy life and do what we want that makes us happy . most of us has been brainwashed that we should do just that and well yes some of us really wants it but is that what everybody wants ?
sometimes well you were happier when life was so simple and you dont have a care in the world but later on when we grow up we start getting stress and only working ourselves up just for money and to live a comfortable life . but that doesnt ensure that we will be happy as well as enjoy life as you fancy it to be . it's just something i think that tends to trigger people and who knows change their path of life (:
you know what i've come to realized ? i cannot get drunk without facing the consequences . lol but i wasnt doing anything wrong anyways . the only wrong that i got out of it was being allergic to it . and the fact that im not a strong drinker ;) oh well that means no belly . lol cant get into much trouble .
other than that the day has been pretty dull other than the fact that i woke up with a blur and dizzy mind . the the thoughts of throwing up is there since this afternoon . then later got the biggest tummy ache ever and got rashes due to the allergy . lol gonna sound like some bimbo but whatever . im not going out till im better (: which i plan to be soon . i hope . well i watched prince of persia and for it being a disney movie it was really not that bad (: 8/10
hey sorry havent been updating all due to exams , but its all OVER NOW !! (: im a free person ! lol from school that is . now that the summer is starting i cant wait to take a good rest from all the work and hectic in school . its like im super happy and excited but i cant express it so much cause im tired from all the studying i went through . lol but it will pump back up tmrw when i get my good night sleep from NO WORRIES !! :D
today right after chemistry we ate lunch with lee xian then head out to pyramid with ratri , andrianna and deedee (: was pretty awesome . went to watch the bounty hunter lol would give it a rate of 8/10 . thought it was pretty good but like the people in the theatre was stupid . they dont even laugh when its funny . lol no sense of humor much lol . the funny part when it was only ratri and i laughing so hard while the rest of the people in silence .
whats that bout ? idk lol . soo excited . wanna pick up activities that i've nvr tried . continue activities that i've stop . take licence and violin exam . its just me and the things i wanna do . go out have fun with my life (: had a great laugh when i was out with them . pictures will come up later on (:
oh yeahh !! party tonight !! schools over . but the stupid thing bout it is that exam is next week . but still its OVER !! :D had the pool party yesterday (: though there's some glitches to it but it was still awesome . didnt expect for the set up to be so well , really glad everyone had a great crazy hectic time ! (: i think i partied till my body ache's on me .
most of me cant really think of what to say since school is over but i have to spend this 3 days studying for my exams . especially chemistry . well i will study but no stress ! thats the mission ! anyways will be going to the temple later , cause today is wesak day ! pictures will come up later
thought i had one of the worst weeks ever due to the amount of stress that suddenly decided to land on me all at once , but with the some help :) i managed to get though it . thanks babe ! :D love yea tons , wouldn't know what i'll do without you .
planning for an event, finishing ISU's that is actually all done since last week but there are editing to do, study for the up coming exam, have to deal with my business in sunway, got a violin exam, driving licence and thats bout it . well there might be more but might not recall but anyways thats the big list that i have to accomplish some by this month and the rest is next month.
but so far do you believe that im actually very calm and relaxed ? not getting all stressed out for the first time (: and further more if i did get more stress that im suppose to i'm gonna have more pimples on my face . i love my clear face thank you (: not such a bad week with the rate im going
OMG chuck bass died !! he can't die . and the fact that this is the final episode for this season sucks hell !! this last episode is freaking stupid !! leaving viewers hanging and waiting for 4 months till the next season comes out . haha yes im a gossip girl freak , been watching the every episode (: very interesting story .
supernatural i think has ended, ugly betty has ended , all thats left is 90210 and even that is gonna end . goshh what am i gonna be doing without it . and why does all of them have to end at the same time . its super annoying . have to find more stuff to do during my free time . read a book ? haha (: it's been sometime since i have last read . should start reading . (:
i really want that tattoo ! (: the thought of being 18 is just one step closer to freedom and having to make decisions for my own. really excited . and now im planning the graduation night ! SIS people you better come if you guys want to experience the best nights in SIS especially when your graduating . im pretty sure lots of people will be coming to this on :D instead of buying your dresses , shop for bikini's and shorts ! :D
wanna get someone to design my tattoo (: this is gonna be super awesome !
all my agony fades a way, give me something i can believe (: part of the lyrics from within temptation . real good stuff . life have been somewhat treating me well . now its just 2 weeks left of school and hallelujah ! :D oh yeahh . can't wait for it . well i cant practically laze around since i have my driving test as well as violin exam so i doubt it . but still its something off school . late nights and late mornings (: that will be pretty often . well maybe .
my post hasnt been long ones like it used to be but well its still something (:
school is ending soon , just for another 3 more weeks then i'm free . but then again i will be having driving exam and violin exam . lol at least being away from school helps (: really tired of always dread myself to be going to chemistry class . and now its ending . just to make sure i dont repeat it . im gonna study freaking hard for it and never again shall this subject be in my way . ohh yeahh .
i really am excited to the ending of school . i can't imagine the feeling of being free again . from the evil clutches of school . and one month holiday here i come (: would so love that . if i was older could probably do what i want but in a controlled manner . not something over my head but still . another year . oh well lets just hope it passes soon .
currently addicted to the music and dance of " the marionette show " it's really good.
had a good weekend , but ended up being a zombie when i woke up for the morning to school . kinda sucks but well yeahh . at this point of stage im not sure what im getting myself into , but i know i liked it . i have been enjoying most of my time , not wasting it on and irrelevant thoughts that used to linger in my head . probably this is something to help me move on with the darkness that has been set upon me this year . the clouds are probably vanishing and the sun is starting to light the days of my life .
very odd ? can say that . didnt expect all of it to happen really . i definitely didnt expect to suddenly put myself in another situation . pushing my luck ? maybe . am i picky ? heck yeah ! well we'll just see where this turns out . but really if you asked me ? i want it the way it is ;)
idk whats happening but i think im starting to like it (: for once feeling so free . well maybe it's just not that bad as i thought it would be . so far school is school . thats getting better too . hopefully next years subjects wont kill me as much as this semester . this semester is gonna end soon & the only thing im worrying for is chemistry . so called easy subject ? not when ms.kim is your teacher thats for sure . there are 5 people in the class that is confirm gonna fail the course . well no pressure . just need to do some homework i guess .
sometimes i dont know what i actually get myself into at times . but well probably it's just suppose to happen . thats what im trying to believe . it's hard when you know you might be making a big mistake but well thats life , its all risk . you wont be living without risk . i shall play my solo , till my duet shows . till then i'll just play it the way it's suppose to be played . i'm just following the notes anyways (:
don't do what others ask or tell you to . for once think for yourself . cause once it's gone , it's gone . and it may never come back . are you willing to risk that chance over something so small and minimal ? everything is hard . with or without me . it's not gonna be any more easier than that . dont wait and regret till it's really gone . i know this is not what your planning to do . how is this gonna help you .
cause when i really get over this . i may never trust you with that chance again . it's your move .
If you can't take it so can't i . i have my set of problems & feelings but i have never taken it out on you . this is what you wanted . then it's what you get . i cant be satisfying your every need when you dont even care about what i feel . your happy with your decision . you'll get over it . just as what you've told me .
i've made my promise . but you have broken yours .