a dream that turned into a nightmare .

heyy people !! :D firstly i wont be blogging for awhile i know you all will miss me xD lol kiddin anyways i will be going for a camp . and will be back ten days later . wish me luck , there will be leeches , mosquitoes , no air conditioner , no music , no phone and no nothing . just me and the tree's and myra .

i will update when i come back but a day after cause i will be dead tired . and will sleep for the whole day . okay soo back my day . it was okay , i stayed over myra's house for 2 nights and i watched the ring 2 and 12midnight and couldn't sleep for a long time . myra was pretty upset with me cause i kept on waking her up . that night itself i manage to sleep for 2 hours then woke again because of a nightmare . i haven't been having nightmares for a long time and now it just brings back memories when i was young . my eyes were swollen and itchy ( idk why ) .

later i talked to my friend till 4 in the morning and i took myra's comforter and slept on the floor with the lights on . later myra woke up cause she was freezing and she turned of the lights and took a towel and went to sleep . then woke up in the morning all tired , went to midv met up with all the form 3's and we watched twilight and bolt 3D . and believe me bolt was pretty boring . and for twilight they cut out all the kissing scene's except one lol . and even that one was short .
went to madam kwan's ate dinner with pei , myra , brenda , steph , sumae and myself . and now I'm here back in the house .

xoxo byee people ! will miss yeah!
ps : dont miss me too much :P

happy birthday eelin!

happy birthday eelinn!

its your day . haha sorry for everything alright .

for now its your bday . your officially 15 . you should be happy :P

well thats all i got to say right now so i gtg byee .

freakyy!

today was tiring . i went to the temple cause my mom wanted to get some amulet . prayed for awhile and went to grocery shopping ! . lol it wasnt as fun haha . but it was okay for a day . went home and then went out again to work out . these few days i have to keep my body fit if i want to make it out alive in that camp lol xD

meet ninja !

oh yeahh i wanted to let something out . knowing currently i have a bloody spammer in my blog . dont know whats his problem is . and i think i know who he is . i can take a rough guess . hmmm cause if anybody knows who this fella is . he will be soo dead . but sadly he doesnt even have the balls to show his name . dont really know whats his problem is . seriously finding problem with me though .

go cyren's !

why so serious ?

lets put a smile on that face :D ;joker

well i know if this fella was to tell his name out . oh god his in a hell lot of problem man . anyways like i said passerby you have no balls to admit who you are so please dont talk . okay . i know you just want attention from me in a way . but sadly not working you know . i bet your super ugly , stupid , and friendless . im sorry but im not willing to be your friend at all . so please bug off! before i get someone to find you . and i got ways okay . dont test my patience .

okay back to reality . i am going to sleep soon . haha goodnight !

xoxo's !

happy birthday brandon's !

brandonlim.

brandonchew and i.
brandonchew.

brandonlim.

oh goshh boring week . i wont be going out tmrw and i dont think i will go out anytime soon so yeah . anybody need me i will be here most of the time i guess . yupp and i also want to wish to guys an early birthday wish !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

BRANDON CHEW & BRANDON LIM !

you guys will be 14 tmrw ! haha well actually in 2 and a half hours more .

haha its been a great year with both of you guys
had fun with the both of you and have a great day tmrw its your day

all the best for next year yeah ! you all sitting for pmr haha :P

anyways i have got to do something , maybe i will start working out tmrw .

and idk lets see maybe i can swim hmm lol

anyways later !

xoxo's

cry

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type that gets upset and cry
cause i never leave my heart open
never hurts me to say goodbye

relationships don't get deep to me
never got the whole ' in love ' thing
and someone can say they love me truly
but at the time it didn't mean a thing

my mind is gone
I'm spinnin' 'round
and deep inside
my tears i'll drown
I'm losin' grip
whats happenin' ?
i strayed from love
this is how i feel

this time was different
felt like i was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife
when you walked out of my life

now I'm in this condition
and I've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what you'll never see me cry

did it happen when we just kissed ?
cause its hurtin' me to let it go
maybe cause we spend so much time
and i know that its no more

i shoulda never let you hold me baby
maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
i didn't give to you on purpose
gotta figure out how you stole my heart

my mind is gone
I'm spinnin' 'round
and deep inside
my tears i'll drown
I'm losin' grip
whats happenin' ?
i strayed from love
this is how i feel

this time was different
felt like i was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife
when you walked out of my life

now I'm in this condition
and i've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what you'll never see me cry

how did i get here with you ? I'll never know
i never meant to let it get so personal
and after all i tried to do
stay away from lovin' you
I'm broken hearted
i cant let you know
and i wont let it show
you wont see me cry

this time was different
felt like i was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife
when you walked out of my life

now I'm in this condition
and I've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what you'll never see me cry

this time was different
felt like i was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife
when you walked out of my life
( you'll never see me cry )

now I'm in this condition
and I've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter you'll never see me cry
on my life ...

i finally found a song that can actually express everything . listen to it . you will get what i mean
but no matter what you'll never see me cry . whatever shit I'm feeling now its all here .

a dark cold morning

cold morning as i woke up my cousin was gone . damn didn't manage to say goodbye .

but it was fun being with you ! . haha come visit again yeahh ! we can have loads of fun

anyways i think my life will go back to normal . just the normal work out yourself ...

feel like a loner . I'm still not ready for prom . anyways i was suppose to go midv with

eelin , neal , nigel , andrien and the rest but i had to turn them down . for my parents its a big no no.so yeah . now I'm again alone at home , i have to find something to do . i was thinking of getting a job but dad don't really encourage on it . well i have nothing else to do with my life .

those of you that still wanna go out with me make plans and no midv lol i will be gone on the

28th nov and will reappear on the 8th dec . so unless you people wanna wait that long then

okay . i still haven't went out with tons of people that i promised

oh goshh . knowing its my last year in srikl

well it sucks in a way but yet im still looking forward to it

i will get to lead a new life

its like a whole restart

back to square 1

i would rather keep certain things in me and the rest in srikl

along with all my memories .

well i will miss all of you

but i have to change . i need it

soo these last few weeks that i get to spend some time with you

before i change

i will visit but idk how frequent it will be

haha unless you wanna visit me that is :P

surprise me xD

anyways ima goo . kinda hungry

so later !

too much pmr in my head ! xD

haha today my cousin and i went to the gym .

soo after working out we started camwhoring lol :P
dont you dare laugh !

haha anyways enjoy yeahh :P

this is what happen last night xD

happy birthday bro !

yesterday was my bro's birthday !

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARREN !

love yea lots though you annoy me at times lol

okay yesterday i went to 1u with my cousin to get the movie tickets for madagascar 2 !

well my bro wanted to watch it since its his DAY?

anyways then got the tickets and my cousin and i stayed there from 12 till 7 gosh we were bored
lol i manage to get nail polish and a shirt lol

I'M BATMAN !!

see william i dared to say it ! :P

anyways then my parents came with my bro

then we watch his movie and ate sushi

later on we went home we gave his present

later on during the night so he was actually quite upset the whole day

thinking he wouldn't get anything so it was pretty hilarious looking at him

expecting something when we didn't give him anything

haha soo here are pictures . I'll blog again bout my day later yeahh !

sorry it wasn't much well my stupid com wont download the pics and

idk why but anyways i wanna say you got me confused .

idk what to say and don't know what to believe in

its like you want to restart everything single thing

you got me in tears that day i really am speechless

so i hope you will make up your mind . anyways see yea guys ! . love yea lots

ending and starting of a new life

today SUCKED !! seriously

but i apologize and would like to thank william and eugene . i wasn't in the mood today and i hope you'll forgive me . and to erm ( you know who you are ) i wanted to talk to you but just something tells me not to idk why . but later when i manage to see and talk to you memories started popping into my head . and i really couldn't take it so i don't blame you for me being upset . its just me .

though i walked off without my bag . well it didn't matter to me cause i just wanted to go somewhere alone and cry . well its stupid idk why I'm doin this its just killin me . but thankfully i will be leaving this stupid school with all my memories along with it . i will get to restart my life and be someone new .

don't take this the wrong way though . i will definately miss you and the others . but i just cant take being there anymore , i feel like i don't belong there . its like an angel in hell or the other way round . that's how odd it actually is . well i hope all this will be forgiven and forgotten cause i don't wanna remember any part of it . well maybe some parts i would want to keep in my head as wanted memories .

but thanks guys for spending the whole day with me eventhough i acted that way , you guys are the best ! :P I'm lucky to have guy friends like you . okayy later ! i gtg chat :D byee darlings lol

xoxo nights !

my flashbacks !

today i went out to sunway . though i got not pictures but i guess you ppl can live without it . anyways i went to school to give away my books and get my year book and soo on . then bla bla bla i went to sunway pyramid . and then book tickets and went to get something to eat . well we went to nando's cause eelin wanted to eat the chicken salad . then the movie started and she still haven't finish eating .


few minutes later myra came along and we sort of hurried eelin . we watched the most confusing movie and it was pretty boring guess what ( oo7 james bond ) lol then after the movie we sort of had nothing to do so went to baskin robbins and ate some ice cream . later neal and nigel left us so we went to the arcade .

then flashbacks !

haha all my volleyball memories came back. well i miss playing it and my players


i was browsing through the pictures of the times we used to spend together . it was fun . during the mssd level . here are a few pictures to give you a main idea