love love love , i want your love !

nowadays i feel really needy , when i want to be independent . i just feel so fragile , so different as if everything is gonna fall down on me . this random feeling has been haunting me for awhile now . maybe its just the exams ? or is it a sign . who knows really . i really cant wait for my trip to bali to come , i just really need to get away from everything and just relax . it will either work or it will make things worst but who cares right ?

caught in a bad romance

when you say music , i say its equal to life . without music there's no colour in the world . just like when im the world and your my colour . i know its chessey , made it up . but it's true dont you agree ? something is missing mind helping me find it ?

xoxo's !

forever hold your peace in pieces ...

it was 4 when i was awaken by the stupid mosquito that hunts my ear , buzzing around . -.- soo annoyed cant even get my sleep so i just sprayed my room and went to my brother's room and watch some phua chu kang (: . luckily my exams arent today but its tomorrow for sure . didnt study at all i tell you . was just busy with my own things .

i just have that feeling where i just dont give a damn anymore . . .

the year is ending i should be having holidays now but nooo i have exams . . lol its fair and unfair at the same time .

just screw it ...

xoxo's!

tonight's gonna be a good night !

im here with my prom pics ! (: lol it wasnt as bad i guess , though its a small dance floor with not as much people as i used to be with but its good enough . i did enjoy myself especially that last itinerary on the list ;P got a number of pictures , well i didnt bring my camera so didnt camwhore as much but there's a few .

leexian . :) . wan en

with nana ! :D

its hollywood babeh !

jason . (: . wan en . jian soon

lol so called date's (:

my ladies !

at the dancefloor !!

xoxo's!

ga ga oh la la my bad romance !

prom is tonight starting in 1 hour 30 mins time . (: lol i feel so tired to go though . its like you have to do tons of stuff before going to prom . hmmm i'll get pictures ! (: somehow i am currently addicted to lady gaga's new song ( bad romance ) its not bad really (:

today was the last day of school for me but i still will be having exam next week . lol gonna party hard then study hard ! :D i wonder what it would be like . this is like SIS first prom , hope it turn out good . have to get ready ! later !

xoxo's!

i'm so missing you ~

it was super funny , cause im having my finals soon . it seems mrs.smajda was in school and she thought we were crazy cause we're in school at 10:30 - 2:00 to do a review of math . haha (: i thought i wouldnt go for it but i did anyways . just paranoid . i wanna get an A+ (: .

later headed to sunway pyramid and meet up with my parents for lunch . did a couple of errands and got home . nothing much really happen today . i bought a super nice pillow :D haha its super comfortable . im gonna sleep soundly tonight .

myraaa !! :D ( we were eating in subway ! )

yesterday i was in myra's facebook account :D it was hilarious i messed and changed everything . lol i do miss her tons . its been ages since i last seen her . not counting video calling . once she's back in malaysia i will plan a couple of days to be with her . she's been a real true friend to me like compared to the others , girls especially . love her tons ! cant wait !!

xoxo's!

life is filled with lies

Math had been weird. lol just felt as if i was in pre school again , playing blocks and using them to relate to math . At time i believe my school is like a kindergarden cause we have so many colourful pictures up on the boards xD . never really look like a high school to me .

i think i manage to get over myself . well just a lil sad thats all . anyways finals are coming soon , with my drama performance , orchestra , band , my assignments are due, and prom . im have just been stressing out cause im trying to cramp all this stuff by the end of next week . all these things are due next week . and i seriously am blank right now ..

i cant spend to much time blogging .. but i will once i got the time

( sorry i have been kinda down lately , its just everything is happening so fast )

xoxo's !

you treat me just like im not a stranger ..

i have to live with this fake and faded smile till well i move on .. no matter how much i want this sometimes life is just like that .. probably i just dont deserve something as perfect as that . im not sure where this road is taking me but i just hope i can find my way back home .. to the heart and core of my very soul.

just ripped me in pieces .. thats how im suppose to look like .. messed up

xoxo's!

the night was just perfect .. meant for two

the day before yesterday i was celebrating my bro's birthday (: bought some haagen dazs ice cream cakes!!

it was just an unforgettable night and event .. <3

the empty parking lot with a sesat girl (:

my family !!

i just find it so cute (:

yesterday i had my orchestra , after not attending it for so long .. then right after that i rushed home to get home to change , bath and get ready for the Royal Charity Gala Night it is an orchestra that took place in the klcc convention centre last night. i went there with nicholas , after that had dinner at madam kwan's and walked outside of klcc to just see the view . it has been some time since the last i was there.

Camwhore !!

pushh !! xD

this pic is just soo cool (:

this is how it looks like (: so awesome

it was soo funny the parking lot was like totally empty , nick and i was like playing with the echo's and stuff haha . it was soo retarded . then left and send me home . i think i reached home bout 12 :30 ? haha but i still manage to wake up for school and stuff and surprisingly i wasnt that tired when i was in school.

xoxo's!

it adds up to one big explosion ..

havent been blogging lately . mainly cause my finals are coming soon so i dont think i'll be blogging as much as i used to just for now that is . the stupid thing is prom is coming up before the exams so i have no idea how people are suppose to have fun and relax really . my brothers birthday is tomorrow , though he doesnt go online at all but anyways

happy birthday lil bro !

we're having haegen dass ice cream cake tonight (: prepare to become fatt !! and i got him the most expensive gift i have ever gotten for anyone . gahh he must like it i tell you , this is all coming out from my savings . anyways today we had the school's open day so went to school did the band performance and then went out to pyramid , got my brothers gift and got home .

tomorrow will be a very busy day .. i was really looking forward to relax this week but i guess thats just not happening anytime soon . -.- have tons of assignments and homework to do and further more the orchestra performance and drama practice will be on for longer hours . haihh .. its just a very busy month ..

xoxo's !

your just as good as a bottle of wine ..

funny thing bout today is that i have develop a liking towards this song (: its super cute haha idk why especially the music video .

gee - girls generation

other than that i have nice pictures from the SIS idol during my performance (: and 2 pictures from the outing with wan en .

ever wonder why i never really blog bout personal stuff ? well i have been misjudge by others most of the time even though this is my blog . i mean i read tons of other blogs and they have the guts to say what they want in their blogs but i always had this thing where i care bout what others say .

probably i just dont have as much guts as those other bloggers do . and most of them are girls anyways i never know the type of people reading my blog . but ever since im in SIS i never really had this problem unlike in srikl . you can say im much less stressful in that manner.

tong hua ! :D

i guess you can say its a big change compared to srikl . there are it's good's and bad's but its not as bad as srikl . although the school is in a basement which is kinda sad but other than that the teachers , students and most of the facilities as great . just the fact that we dont have a sports day is frustrating . these are my last 2 years in high school . would love to set the first record in SIS if we ever have a sports day.

with eejin and wan en

the groupie (:

sometimes i wonder will you be by my side through the bad times too ? ..

xoxo's!

nothing is perfect ..

want you , i need you , where are you ? ... this is what happens when im falling into thin air <3

xoxo's

i dont want this moment to ever end

nothing really matter's unless i choose what i really want in my life . . .

yesterday i went out with wan en and the others to pyramid . had a fabulous time with them , we watched the traveller's wife and gosh it was super sweet the whole movie . it might be kinda corky but still towards the end it was really nice . i nearly cried . lol i give the movie a 8/10 (:

Happy birthday babe (: hope you had as much fun as i did when we went out . haha most of the time i was laughing when your around . although i spent well all my money during the outing but i guess it was worth it ;)

i just wanna be free ..

went for ice skating today . lol at first it was fun but after that i just started getting tiring and kinda boring . got 2 blisters at my foot as a souvenir for not skating for super long (: oh yea before i forget HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN EN !she's old now (:

sadly i have no time for myself lately . i just wanna go out and party rite now . either that or just sit by the beach and just stare into space . thats what i really wanna do rite now . prom is coming up and so as finals . most probably have to read up the previous work . got a couple of assignments to complete . well now having the urge to watch jennifer's body ! though i dont usually watch horror's but i doubt im gonna miss this one .

xoxo's !

never judge anyone by their looks ..

i just came back from SIS idol . lol i think mark and i did okay just a couple of screw ups here and there but i guess it was fine (: so tired after practising , doing homework , after school and got kinda sick . gosh what a day . tomorrow im going ice skating (: tee hee

tong hua ! (:

xoxo's!

break , fall , end of story

do you always wonder what life has ahead of you ? whether the decisions we make is right ? i get that alot nowadays over thinking and just being plain paranoid . i dont know why im this way but i always want to be prepared to make sure i dont fall and break in pieces .

lots of stuff to do like homework , and finals are at the end of this month . but the great thing is i get to go for ice skating this thursday ! :D and its a class ! hehe . the only bad news ruining this whole thing is that i might not be able to change my subject . you would ask " why did i pick that subject when i know i dont want to " mainly cause dad kept on persuading to take it and all cause seriously if i were to take all those subjects i would die.

this is andrew ! (: she's hot aint she ? ( btw thanks for all your hard work )

HISTORY ~ ENGLISH ~ CAREER STUDIES ~ BUSINESS ( which i plan to change to drama) tons of people are complaining that there's tons of work for these 4 subjects . anyways gtg do math . soo geeky

xoxo's!

my 300th post !!

its such a bummer nowadays , first my laptop got wet . why cause my ceiling is leaking -.- thats why i didnt dare to touch my laptop till now . gah i hope it'll be okay. today was another one . i was suppose to go for the terry fox run event to volunteer for my community hours , and then what happen ohh we cant volunteer cause they have found someone to replace us . so we ended up running . i ran in my slippers ! for the first time ! . all the runners we're giving me this weird look as if i dont have the money to get shoes or something . i thought since we're only volunteering why need shoes rite ?

somehow i wonder why we have to live when its only filled with pain and suffering . everything we do is bout pain and suffering . its freaking annoying . haihh forget what i said .. this is my 300th post ! lol quite little dont you think ? i have no pictures in this com so no pictures today . probably will blog more tomorrow .

xoxo's !