So long & good night ..

If you carry on this way ,

things are better if i said ,

so long & good night ,

so long & good night.

If you can't take it so can't i . i have my set of problems & feelings but i have never taken it out on you . this is what you wanted . then it's what you get . i cant be satisfying your every need when you dont even care about what i feel . your happy with your decision . you'll get over it . just as what you've told me .

i've made my promise . but you have broken yours .

it's your turn to face the consequences .

its hard i know .

but its the best thing for you

call me what you want .

cause it will hurt me & i know it .

i cant stop you .

have a nice day

xoxo's

we're not together ..

This is the way you left me,

I'm not pretending.

No hope, no love, no glory,

No Happy Ending.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life

Can't get no love without sacrifice

If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well

A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told

No hope, or love, or glory

Happy endings gone forever more

I feel as if I'm wasted

And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,

I'm not pretending.

No hope, no love, no glory,

No Happy Ending.

This is the way that we love,

Like it's forever.

Then live the rest of our life,

But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind

Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around

If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep

I can think that we just carried on

no happy endings ..

had a bad week and dont intend to talk about it much . but all i know is that it's gonna take me a long time to carry myself up , but this time alone . i guess life sucks in that way . i'm not sure whether this is the best decision yet . but it seems like history is repeating itself . i dont understand anything anymore . you promised . well i can never rely on promises anymore now can i ?

it's like your giving up so easily & its not like you to . here i am trying to fight for what i think is right & it has been what we have been fighting for for months but its just like your giving up a dream . and want nothing to do with it anymore . well . im speechless really . and have nothing to say . just trying to accept that horror that is now called a fact .

it's the hardest story i've ever told ... that's just the cold hard truth

this is the hardest story that i've ever told ...

missed you everyday . i cant deny it . you have been apart of my life for a very long time . i'm grateful to have you in my life . i may not be the best at times . but i can never be perfect . thats just human .

xoxo's !

Hier était juste comme parfait (:

i'm sort of addicted to French right now (: find it sexy . lol anyways had a great day yesterday . Met up with all my friends that i havent being around with ever since i change school . Miss them tons i do agree . but it doesnt feel as awkward as it used to be . maybe cause sports day was usually my thing ? i dont know . lol once again red house won for cheer :D . somehow i still miss srikl in a way . i do like my school, but the only turn of about it is that there's no sports day .

i spent time with my bf (: and gosh havent seen him so pumped up when he's running . LOL practically he was amazing . winning all the short distance running events . lol all of us including me screaming when it was between him and another runner . real close but my baby pulled trough . winning 1st place for every event . real proud of him :D

that was practically my exciting day when the day turns dark , it was movie night with my family . we watched Sherlock Holmes . it was actually pretty scientific and very interesting . well especially for a story like that . rating of 8/10

xoxo's!

j'ai parié votre avoir des doutes

i'm not sure whats going on in that head of yours . but if it's something that you dont want to tell me . i know the amount of stress & responsibility your put on . i just hope it's nothing too serious . well i knew i have to face it eventually . i'm already prepared for the worst . but for all thats worth , if you have a change of heart i cant stop you , and dont try to hide cause you know i will eventually find out but just so you know .

je t'aime ...

live life like it's suppose to be !

not gonna post much today . yes for the first time i have finish everything thats suppose to be done . came home from school and just KO-ed on my bed till 7 or 8 then started exercising my fats away . haha i realised that i have been soo unfit soo decided to work it all out .

i dont know what to feel anymore . i swear my heart just fell . with the words that could possibly hurt me . come through those lips . is it just too good to be true ? . first you said this , & the next you said the other . how can i believe you if you keep on changing ? it could possibly be because we're just to far away or you just had a change of heart .

xoxo's

I wanna run away !

havent been posting . arghh same as usual . i'm getting damn fed up with my school . its not due to the people there . well just a little few people but not most of em . it's mainly the teachers that are giving tons of work like nobody's business . i mean one for each subject is enough you know . and the project that's given to us its something that would at least take a couple of days to finish due to the fact that you work with in groups . i wanna run away from this school . just can't wait to graduate .

i went to midvalley yesterday to watch " how to train your dragon " 3 - D lol brother wanted to watch it so much so yea . it's okay the only thing bout it is that its just another typical movie where the good guy always win you know . haha but what can you expect its for kids eh ? i would give the movie a rate of 4.5/10 ? lol cause it was in 3-D :) i wouldnt say its the best outing in the world , actually might have been one of the worst but well that's my family . can't do much bout it .

xoxo's!

i'm bringing sexy back !

life has been as much as it could be . as stressful as i am i did manage to loosen up . gahh school is getting so annoying when there are loads of assignments given at once and i have to end up studying too . school used to be way more fun . but ever since the new kids came and the graduates left its just have been that way . school became so weird and awkward . idk really . i just cant wait to graduate and leave the school immediately .

funny thing is i found out my parents actually reads my blog too . haihh . and this is probably recently ? or maybe longer for all i know . well i have nothing to hide fyi (: read all you want . i havent been doing anything wrong . but if i were planning to go clubbing , drinking , doing a tattoo , piercing and all that i'll let you know ;) parents are always paranoid when it comes to the following words . i wonder how it'll be when i eventually become one and end up being terrified at the words .

xoxo's!

FML !!

yesterday was such a BUMMER !! first during chemistry while doing an experiment i manage to get CuCl2 in my eye. that's copper chloride and it's really stingy i don think i would want to do that again xD . then later after walking my dog i put him back in his cage and dad was like ringing the doorbell and i was like " HOLD ON ! " when i was at the garden then i slip, trip and hit my leg against the step . and its in between the knee and the foot . OUCH much.

After that i found out i stepped on a dead bee. and my foot is a little swollen . what a great day eh ? i thought my eye was going to become blue due to the copper chloride. lol my boyfriend nearly flipped when i told him my whole eye turned blue over the phone xD but was actually kidding and he was like " WHATT !! " (: poor thing, so worried all the time

xoxo's!

things are not always perfect but thats just life aint it ?

yes i went for the sports day cross country trials and these were the pictures (: they arent alot cause my camera decided to run out of battery that day . but anyways i have bout a few pics .

xoxo

guess what ?

Happy 3rd Month Anniversary babe ! (:

it's been officially 3 months xD haha it may not be important to anybody else but it is important to me (: loves every moment of it .

i already took the 5 hour lecture . dad doesnt want me to take the lesson till exams are over and during the holidays which will be in like what 2 months ? to me . NO WAY !! lol im going to take the test this sunday and expect to finish and get my licence by may-ish ? lol cant wait .. other than that i met these gay people and you know what . though they can be pretty bitchy but that have a freaking cute attitude and taste in fashion man. LOL mom and i were looking at volvo cars and they were like you should get it . the car is very safe and stuff :D its my first time actually meeting real gays . but they aren't as bad as people describe them to be.

xoxo's!

i never realized ..

LOL sorry guys . (: i swear to you i didnt photoshop the pics (: it just that i dont know what i couldn't upload it and its not 5 pictures but its like at least 50 pictures . haha that's why when i upload one it took me 10 mins to upload it . let's try yea .

xoxo's!

how you like me now ?

hey (: sry havent been updating much but well i had an interesting time yesterday . something that well there's so much drama that made it memorable. haha i got into trouble well not really since i didnt do anything but visit my friends and stuff. well i was scolded for awhile then he was like dont do it again. so im not sure whether i'll even be going to srikl's sports day at all.

after all that happened yesterday i doubt i want to get in trouble again or get others in trouble. though i really want to be there since it's gonna be the last year that i will be visiting that place ever after my friends graduate so i'm not sure . they even want me to go for charity dinner . LOL haha do you think i'd have to ask permission ? hmmm

i'm officially 1 year older now ... good or bad ? (:

xoxo's!

da beach ! :D

i havent been posting cause i was in PD (: lol got tons of awesome un photoshop pics ! :D lol the lighting was good enough for it to look as if it was photoshoped :) i swear they are untouched photos ! i'll start posting them when i get back tonight . but for now im still stuck here till dinner . soo will be here for awhile .

will re-update

xoxo's !