When would you know it's a dead end ?

Decisions were never my forte,
But there's this one that I can't ignore.

When things becomes sour and there's no more love to give,
It's a broken heart that tears me apart.

The minutes feels like hours and the hours feels like days,
It's like a never ending hell hole.

As easy as it may sound,
I don't know where to go from here.

I'm lost in the fights in my own mind,
Wandering which way to go.

Let, Jump, Fly.

My mind is cluttered,

In thoughts that pollutes,

Pulling away from emotions,

Taking this path that neither take sides.

Living a life full of expectation,

To being a lone soul with running tears,

The reality of being free,

Is through an emotionless fate.

Life and it's meaning ?

Search of reasons why ?

Let, Jump, Fly.

wanna be my valentine's ?

Yes it's cliche to celebrate something like valentines day as you would have the couples that spends lots of $$ on this day and the singles complaining that their forever alone.Those in denial or maybe just don't believe in valentines day feels as it's just an advertising gimmick to persuade the market to celebrate this day.

But let me tell you this, without days like these then there's nothing to look forward to if I'm gonna shoot down everything that's possibly untrue in our reality. We might as well not celebrate anything and not believe in Santa Claus, Tooth Fairy and the Easter Bunny. It's so pessimistic but hey I'm not gonna stop you from your beliefs but it's a beautiful day outside and I want to do something about it.

Valentine's day is a day we appreciate the ones we love and yes as much as we want to celebrate this day everyday but sometimes we get carried away with our current lives to realize. Things like these should exist more often just so that I could look forward to something, so that my world isn't so dull and so that I could just live life like everything is magic on it's own.

When we're kids we used to see the world as a magical place and always so curious to discover more, but as we grow older and we learn more about our world, everything gets boring as those things we once believe in doesn't exist. I want to be a kid at heart and make my world a more beautiful place and if you're gonna go be all oh she's such a blond then be my guest :)

 Happy Valentine's Day Everyone !! 

Thought of having a little fun :)

Had a wonderful day and though it felt short it was worth it :)

Went to another state off and had lunch, felt like a little adventure going off to somewhere else just to have lunch. Sounds ridiculous sometimes but that's what life is; to go out, explore and at the same time treasuring it with the people you love.

Now that I'm ending my Internship, it's time to move on to my degree.
Had a great ride with it and learnt all that I need to know about the working world.
Love to thank by boss and colleagues for making it a great experience and well they do feel like family and that's what counts.

My boyfriend always had to give me this face so I figured that I should post it up :)

Enjoy!

Liar from the grave

It's time that I share a little secret about people and their sincerity.

There are times where friends are not friends because they're mainly seeking for an objective.
Lies upon lies, time and time again.
There are so many types of friends out there which is sad to know that they exist.

From fake friends to hi bye friends, status to money.
It doesn't matter if they're young or old because they grow to become people like these.

It's sad to say that good friends are hard to come by, but that's not gonna stop me from looking.
If I have to fall to the ground and scrape my knee, I know that one day someone will lend a hand.
And that someone would accept you as to who you are in open arms.

Don't let the mask fool you from finding out the truth

Cheers to another year, 2013!

It's when the clock is ticking your life away

Sometimes on those weekends you would want to spend that day to be lazy and just not do anything. Well I did that today and well my body felt great but it felt like it's a day wasted to do absolutely nothing but stare on the computer screen.

If I plan to be lazy today, what I could do is this:-

• Finish at least 1 activity that doesn't require much thought or effort but it's productive
• Take a walk at the park / a jog to sweat some stress away
• Try to cook perhaps
• Clean up my super messy room
• Learn Something New ( Language, Article, etc )

All these things could at least make me feel a little more productive than just lazying around and watching tv shows. 

The funny thing about this is that I thought of it at the end of the day so in a way it's really hypocritical. But Hey at least it wouldn't waste all those future lazy days that I might have. 

Yes I've got the experience of the working life and it does feel tiring mentally & physically.

The only way for us to use this time is to invest in ourselves to benefit the future. 

New Goal !! 

To no more unproductive lazy Sundays ! 

xxxx

Welcome to the real world

I stumbled upon this self realization that I always had been protected by my parents from what the real world is. When I was much younger, I remembered of always wanting to grow up, work, live on my own, being able to do the things that I wanted to do without the need to always refer back to my parents.

Now that I have bits and pieces of it which comes with responsibilities & the hardships of life itself. Am I exaggerating ? maybe but this is what it really feels like. It almost feels lonely because there is less social time and even then I stop Rock Climbing for 2 months. This shouldn't happen but it is.

It's good that I'm learning young and adapting to this sudden change but it really is a culture shock. Now I understand why the working world is so much different than our inner child self. It's pretty much like comparing 2 in the extreme opposite of each other.

Why I started blogging again because someone told me that I'm good at it and maybe I shall just continue it. This is my special place for posting up stuff in chronological order of the things that has happen in my life and some are going through different stages/phases of growing up.

I believe the things I'm going through now would allow me to pick up the bruises, learn and walk on my own 2 feet. My goals during this time when I'm working is to start Rock Climbing and have my social life back. I've learn a lot at Saltyskins and even more about tshirts are they specialize in apparel's. I now can truly appreciate the tshirts that I have, after knowing the efforts that people put into producing a tshirt and how even something as simple as that can mean a big difference.

Anyways time to get some sleep....
ZZZZzzzzz